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Commited to Hydro Homie and Calorie Deficit i take this measurement in 11 july 2024 before i started calorie deficit and drinking water only Body circumference -: Waist - 41inch Chest - 41 inch Hip - 45 inch Thigh - 27 inch Abs - 40 inch Arms - 13 inch 9 August 2024  2 week on drinking water only and calorie deficit ( started 26 july 2024 ) i dont see any change yet . but i become more positive and my thought more clear . it like you clear cache in chrome . 16 August 2024 This time getting much harder . I need to avoid any tempting sugary drinks. If I don’t, it’s all over :( Usually 2 or 3 weeks your body will start craving sugar. it feel so addictive. its game over if i start to touch it !  but , i see some changes on my body circumference . body circumference -: Waist - 39.5inch Chest - 39 inch Hip - 43.5 inch Thigh - 26.7 inch Abs - 39.5 inch Arms - 13inch note: I took all these measurements with a tape measure. There might be some minor errors, but I promise. the progres...

Is it normal to seek validation? Is it normal to face rejection? I face a lot of rejection and feel unworthy and ashamed of myself. I used to have a good body shape—skinny when i was around 15 and 16 . For years, I struggled with being overweight . I was tired of feeling invisible, so when I was around 15 , I decided to lose weight . At the time, I believed that losing weight would finally get me the validation I craved from others . I worked hard to shed those extra fats, hoping that a slimmer body would make people notice me, care about me, and maybe even like me more . But even after I became skinny, I realized that the validation I sought was temporary, and it didnt bring me the happiness I expected . I also experienced love, the kind I believed would last forever, as we often do when we're in a relationship - but it didn’t. We cant deny we need piece of validation in ourself . but dont think about it too much , dont seek too much validation . its a poison  The o...